Can I get a motivating thought?

Everything is going wrong for me... I am sick. I dont have any money. School starts next week and I have not paid. I dont know how I will get my money. Things at home are going bad. I am going through a tought mental recovery.... I suffer from depression, severy anxiety, PTSD ( I was ually abused when children)..... I dont see any good infront of me.... What should I do? Should I ask help to my parents? I belief they wount understand, and they are poor too! My parents dont know anything about my mental illness, they just think I am just being a rebellious... they dont know I was abused either, but I dont want to tell them that. What Can I do?